tik tok tik tok..

tik tok tik tok… bukan suara sepatu kuda atau ketuk pintu apalagi gemuruh kilat menerpa rajawali… hahaha… for me,  it sounds so clear while we sit on a sofa reading any available magazine just to kill time until the one or the thing we’ve been expected come up.. an activity of waiting.. *taraaaaaa* *maaph, ga penting* hahaha 😀

If you ask me a thing that I dislike is waiting.. kayanya bukan hanya saya yang sedemikian kesalnya kalau harus menunggu tanpa tahu harus apa *pede*.. here’s the things.. first, I’m a planner (meskipun si planning suka jalan ga sesuai) jadi kalau mau ini itu kesana kemari biasanya sudah di planning, jadi kalau harus nunggu akan ada kegiatan yang delay2 jadinya… second, I could say I’m quite independent, jadi kalau bisa ini itu ksana kmari bisa sendiri kenapa musti sama orang lain dan bakal kesel luar biasa kalau sampai nunggu orang lain dan saya tahu itu bisa saya kerjain sendiri, inget jaman dulu bapake tercinta berniat anter saya ke suatu tempat tapi hararese yang bikin saya ngacir sendiri gara-gara malas nunggu dan pede bisa sendiri tanpa dianter yang ujung2nya bikin beliau panik nyusulin saya *anak durhaka!* hhaaa ampuni akuuhh ayahandaa, but that tragedy warned the family kalau memang saya tidak suka menunggu.. third, waiting is boring.. hahahahaha..

baiklaaahh cerita di atas sungguh menggambarkan betapa tidak toleran dan egoisnya saya.. tapi itu duuluuuu jaman masih muda belia ceria senang riang masa depan kan datang *lanjut nyanyi* hahahaha… lalu sekarang?

mulai berpikir sesuai usia lah ya.. haha.. jaman nunggu tes2 rekrutmen kerja, nunggu pengumuman tes kerja, nunggu ini nunggu itu barulah ngeh kalau the way we act while waiting is the way we act to patience *ya gitulah maksudnya* hahaha… mulai bisa nerima kalau ada hal-hal yang memang layak untuk ditunggu…

sampai suatu hari terjadilah percakapan yang kurang lebih begini lah yaa:

TS (teman saya): fris, kapan nikah? | S (saya): tar laah nunggu dilamar.. hahahaha.. | TS: fris, nonton film C yuks! | S: eeuummm.. udah janji mo nunggu si A nontonnya | TS: ah fris, kamu kerjaannya ko ya nungguuu teruuss | S: *hah?!!* yaa mo gimana lagiii mudah2an penantianku tak sia2 yaa.. hahahaha..

*sungguh diplomatis bukan?* seperti apa kata si gambar di bawah ini:

wishing the exciting one come to mamaaa… LOL

tapi tetep yaaa.. nunggu tanpa usaha ibarat bikin kue gapake mentega ya ga akan jadi… *hhaaa asa pengen bikin  kuee*

“…dan kesabaran merupakan cahaya yang terang…” (HR. Muslim)

a heart of mine says….

My Lord, My Allah SWT,, I’m tired…

tired of thinking to much…

tired of feeling useless, unproductive, less motivated…

tired of drowning in darkness…

tired of loosing my spirit…

tired of thinking in negative way…

tired of living in negative society, negative ambiance…

tired of getting far from You…

Busy? Are you?

Wooohh.. exactly a month ago I wrote my last post.. So, how are you, world? 🙂

Me? busy lately… am I? :p well.. not really, I’m not sure either.. hahaha..

Let me share about the busy-me.. and here some stories… (not at the exact time)

9 am – no task no job nothing important to do, just browsing | 10 am – the boss gave some tasks, my mom called, I spoke in a hurry then she thought I’m busy then end up the phone | 11 am – task done, no more things to do..

12 jan – promised attending friend’s wedding on 18th | another friend of mine called me for vacation on 18th, I refused, he/she thought I’m busy..

feb – made planning a vacation for march | on march – site visit task from my boss | I made the plan, I screwed it up..

this week – nothing important to do, no one ask for lunch, hang out, dinner, etc | the next week – many sudden task, many invitation..

at one moment – me, ironing. A friend called, I said I’m ironing | another moment – me, ironing. The same friend called, I said I’m ironing. She thought I’m busy ironing everytime.. LOL

Could I say those condition as a busy-me? I’m not as busy as you think, dear..

It just an inappropriate coincidence timing, I guess… hehehe :p

BUSY – engaged in an action; full of activity; foolishly or intrusively active; full of distracting detail  (Merriam Webster)