Green and Blue

Green and Blue


Such a rethorical

Being apart from husband or in a long distance marriage has led many people keep asking me the same question..


..So, you are married, friska? | yup | is ur husband here? |nope| uuuuwwhh don’t u miss him?

..kumaha ika disana? | Alhamdulillah damang, uwa | sono teu ka mas aji?

..empriiss suami kamu jd ikut ksana? | enggaa :(( | uuuhh.. sono atuh nyaa?

such a rethorical..

mis him

and each time they ask me about him, it just making me miss him even more..
the saddest thing was when I couldn’t come to his graduation.. he was so handsome and mature with his ‘toga’.. I just want to hug him tight, look into his eyes and say ‘I’m so proud of you’.. I know this is too mellow, but being apart from our lovely one is not a piece of cake..

But he is coming here soon! soo excited!! can’t wait! yeaaayy ūüôā

Study and Struggle

G’day people!

Been a looongg time ya.. No need¬† to tell you why¬†coz there’s no particular reason, just too lazy too write.. LOL

Officially 3 months living here! time flies¬†like an arrow since the first time¬†I entered the lecture class..¬†well, for the first month, I spent the¬†days with¬†English and cultural preparation program.¬†That was really fun!¬†met up new friends from 28¬†different countries, shared different stories, learned new¬†cultures, went on a city tour, went shopping, went to the beaches, went to free-barbie events (barbie = barbeque – oz slang), and so on. These kind of activity has successfully lessen the level of my¬†homesickness.. coz I passed the days with friends¬†in¬†similar scholarship, mix-feeling,¬†sacrifice, anxiousness, confusion, excitement, spirit, curiousness¬†and mission…¬†to study, to survive¬†and to struggle ūüôā

Then, here come the nightmare.. the lectures, assignments, lab, quizzes, exams!! (in fact, these packages are the main point of all my coming here.. LOL). Spent the first day of lecture session with my forehead squeezing for I have to be used to the pronunciation and new terminologies.. that was the time I feel like I am the most stupid person on earth! -_-

Beyond that, I am a ¬†lucky lady¬†for gaining¬†the full scholarship program that I don’t have to¬†spend my own money, not¬†even for a cent.. Thing going to be different when¬†we get¬†different scholarship program, bring family (husband/wife and children), or plan to make maximum savings.. leaning on the¬†stipend is not enough.. here, I can easily find bachelor, master and Phd students working as a cleaner, a taxi driver, a truck driver, a¬†factory labor, a waitress, a butcher, a librarian¬†or other casual jobs.. coz yeah this is¬†an expensive place to live ever!!¬†Don’t ever think about prestige, coz¬†people appreciate services to be¬†payed high here.. you can¬†earn money¬†$12 – $ 20 per hour.. just imagine working 3 hours¬†per day for¬†A WEEK..¬†it is similar¬†with my MONTHLY salary¬†at the office back home… haha..

Coz I have a compulsory¬†undergrad course to be enrolled this semester, I met the local student who is¬†studying and working full-time¬†as well.. A friend from India who always sit next to me, is also working as security for all his night hours, and got sleepy during the lecture, but he reviewed the materials..¬†A¬†friend’s¬†wife has to¬†go to¬†uni every¬†4.30-7.30am to work as a cleaner while her husband is taking care the baby and vice versa in the afternoon.. In order to make a visit to Korea,¬†my friend is¬†working for¬†more than one part time job,¬†then her dream¬†is coming¬†very soon..

Frankly, I do believe that the livelihood isn’t for free.. It’s all about effort, consequences of taking chance and facing¬†a challenge¬†in gaining better future..¬†ūüôā

me? am I taking the job as well? euumm.. not yet..¬†I’d love to but¬†not without my husband’s permit.. ūüėÄ

I remember once¬†my friend ever¬†said,¬†‘enjoy your study abroad, a moment when you¬†get to¬†lean¬†on yourself and to know yourself better.. an expensive experience you’ll make’.. Indeed!! this is the place where I have nobody to lean¬†on,¬†no relatives,¬†only new friends to share¬†stories and feeling..¬†this is a big lesson, I see I learn ūüôā

Especially for those who studying and struggling somewhere out there, let’s break a leg!